[martind19]

(I'm editing down my post as I'm working through this, eliminating the old details.)

I suffer from Nice Guy Syndrome.

Not claiming boundaries. Afraid to stand up for myself, if I ever do find myself apart from the people around me.

I am a great husband and father, yet often play the role of great husband and father as a volcano of regret and resentment is brewing underneath.

I feel it almost impossible to get through the daily grind of having (and being a stay at home dad for) a young family.

I was never close with my birth family. Yet I quickly jumped into being completely merged with my soul mate, a woman who I feel cosmically/psychologically connected with, whom I've been with for 15 years.

I long for a 'life' on the 'outside', but often feel very jailed in my own physical and psychological existence.

I feel there is so much inside me I'm afraid of.

I am probably just like everyone else.