I believe your guide/lord understands your reaction! And is amused, as if you were a small child. That's how he loves you! I don't think you offended him. If you can open yourself up, and let them know you'd love the chance to meet again - they will be there.
Or, it might be enough to know that the big blow you got, is truly part of a larger plan to get you to walk in your light and truth - that's what I got from it, anyway. Of course, it wasn't my dream!
