| | Was that an attempt of communication from the Source?
Today when i took a nap in the afternoon, i dreamt that i was going into the room of a psychic medium, who was not known to me, to place some object in there. In fact, it was planned so early in the dream that by the time I actually went into the room to place the object I had forgotten that it was the special room.
But the moment I entered the room it was like an electric shock, as in, I understood immediately that there was someone sitting in the room. I could see the place where the energy was , it was an indian style seat with a yellow silk cover which was luminous, and bathed in the golden light from a lamp; the place was in a pool of light, and I suddenly I understood -I dont know how i understood it, but I did- that it was my favourite deity/lord sitting in there, the one i am most connected to (I am a Hindu) and pray everyday to. However, I was so frightened by this experience, and also because I was paralysed and powerless to move my body (I could not run out of the room; i was paralysed) I screamed out to my brother for help. It seemed I was screaming and hollering with all my lungs , but my brother, who I imagined was on the floor below, did not hear me scream. I heard my mother say to him, i think she is calling out for you, go check, but since he didnt hear anything, he did not come. And finally I unerstood that I have no choice, but I have to have this meeting because he absolutely has to speak to me and felt completely trapped. As if he were trying to talk to me against my will. and the moment i felt this, i woke up.
I was so damn scared 'cos this is the first time this is happening to me.
Now I should mention the most important part. This morning, around 11 AM i had received a peice of information which was a big blow to me, my dreams, hopes and aspirations, and it had nearly destroyed my faith, in there being a Source, spirit guides to help you etc. However, I had a faint voice telling from the deepest depths of consciousness that this wasnt the way you were meant to succeed so dont worry.
I am reeling. First from the blow, and then from this experience. Was this just an episode of sleep paralysis? I dont think it was, because I have experienced them before and could tell I was wide awake, and just my body couldnt be moved. This, on the other hand, was a very, very vivid dream. Please help classify.