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Originally Posted by Steve Pavlina  Are you willing to do what you love even when it isn't comfortable?
If you want to do what you love and provide a lot of value to other people, you'll need to get used to spending a lot of time outside your comfort zone. Whatever disturbs, irks, or bothers you the most is what will come up for you to deal with. If a lack of money bothers you -- if that's the kind of obstacle that could make you quit -- then that's the test you'll need to pass.
You'll be ready to experience and enjoy financial "comfort" when you know that a lack of comfort won't be enough to make you quit doing what you love.
Whatever you fear, you must eventually face. If you don't fear it, you don't have to face it. |
This is the realisation I came to today. Your last two paragraphs amplified it with clarity, so thank you.
I have plenty of "strength" in that I can do practically anything, but in doing that I kind of hide my true self behind a shell because I fear exposing it.
I thought I could live with this incongruence, but the way forward seems to be without it. It's almost like polarity, but I think it will manifest a little differently. At least, I know I need to somehow face these challenge without losing myself while doing it.
It's kind of thrown me for a loop, heh. For a while I've wondered if my focus on personal development wasn't a deeper level avoidance behaviour. I think that's looking at it a little too black and white, but it would seem this is the one thing I've been avoiding in general. Months ago I wasn't ready to face something like this, but while it doesn't seem like it'll be easy, I know the challenge won't cause me to back away. I feel like I have more capacity.
Facing the challenge is easy; I can will myself to do practically anything. But then I guess that's not the real fear. Hmmm, I get the feeling that I need to drop my notion of separateness. As long as I relate to life as separate and something threatening, I can see how this fear will continue to surface. It's not something you can deal with, but a natural consequence of a very deep belief. And I can see how dropping it would bring about profound changes in the way I approach life, akin to what you experienced when you adopted subjective reality, Steve.
I'm not quite sure of the way forward, but as Dan Millman might say, "the first realisation of a warrior is not knowing." Truth, love, and power, and the realisation that I must eventually face what I fear will be helpful. But I think facing it is not a point you reach, but a practice. As always, clarity and perfection (in the ideal situation sense) don't seem to be prerequisites. It's the readiness displayed by moving forward. Reminds me of
something Erin said:
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I discovered that courage does not come before you take action, courage comes when you take responsibility and then decide you must take action.
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I kind of like how life just steers me clear of money completely and says, "nope, you go do this now."
And honestly, I'm not complaining. It at least feels more fulfilling than seeking sheets of plastic (we have plastic money in Australia) with old people on them.
I guess it's just taken me a while to realise that.