I'm working with Angela and her coaching method for a few underlying issues I have -- it has been very, very powerful and very, very positive. There's such a feeling of clarity and purpose that I get from our work! You can read
my thread here, if you'd like - I have more to write, but it will take a little while. I may start a different thread, too, because I don't like seeing "I am worthless" every time I write on that one! You might glean some things from reading that, or, of course, working with Angela!
Like 25 said, it does no good to beat yourself up for choices you made in the past. Can you breathe nice and deep, and feel that you're OK right now? In this moment, everything is OK.