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Originally Posted by Bruce Achterberg  I know the answer to that, but feel I might need some support from someone, or something. I'm not sure if I can do it alone, which interestingly, may not be a bad thing since seeking help is exactly the type of thing I'd usually resist. |
Hah! That's how I've felt too. That I can't do it alone, that I need someone to help me out, and yet, asking for help is so incredibly hard for me. Not for advice, I can easily do that (as you can see with all my posts and thread), but asking for help beyond advice is soooo hard for me to do, so it's felt like a chicken and egg thing - I need help, but I can't ask for it.
I think I've pinpoint why I've had that difficulty - it goes back to a very deep belief from childhood I've very recently uncovered that "I am deficient", and "I am unlovable" that I'm currently working with Angela through coaching. So perhaps once I've replaced those very deep huge deep core belief, then maybe I'll stop feeling like I need someone to help me by my side in order to get my life going, and at the same time I'll also be able to start asking for help without feeling so much incredible internal resistance and blockage
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Originally Posted by Bruce Achterberg Hahaha, I laughed out loud when I read that.  "Hell no" indeed. |
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The reason I said "live comfortably" as opposed to "staying alive" is that I wanted to avoid people saying, "you can stay alive by [insert extreme, unreasonable thing here]." I tend to try to use very specific word choice to prevent expended energy from me having to clarify things, but it seems to never work as well as I'd like it to, heh.
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Ahhh, ok, that make sense. That's true I guess for me, I could "stay alive" by getting any job, going back to my old job, getting a job at a retail store like I've done before, etc. But I now refuse to do that - I refuse to slave away, giving up my soul. So in truth it is more about "staying alive", but since I refuse now to get a job I hate, a job I don't love, then I've blocked those off, so it's not an option for now.
As for me I guess the words "staying comfortable" I get the image of being in a plush couch
. But now I get your meaning, which is similar to mine.