Sounds to me like perfectionist tendencies, which can keep one in a never ending loop of “it’s not perfect enough yet” because “I see the big picture of the outcome. I clearly see the details and intricacies. I have a sense of perfection and completeness in all its glory, but the how it is right now, does not match the perfection I see. I return to my idea and see it perfectly in detail. If only I could get it like this right now. Its not like that right now. Its not good enough yet“
That is the sort of thing I have been through in my life.
Well if it’s not good enough, bring your standards down just a little. Down into the stratosphere at least. Get out of your head a bit and move the body. Hey, I say this and I am reminding myself at the same time. I have come a long way, but I still keep an eye on myself. I have progressed by starting to be a bit more physically focused rather than get caught up in mind loops. I don’t spend too much time on ideas any more. I set the intent, and at a later time when the inspiration comes to me, I enter into a visual journal. It’s more efficient and keeps me less in an endless loop which only brought self doubt and no action in the end. Believe me, if you wait for it to be perfect it will never get done. If you can see it’s not perfect, but its good enough for now, and it can evolve to something better over time then you are getting into the momentum.
If you are into books, you may like to check out one called “the life you were born to live”. Generally we have potentialities for the same thing, but each one of us has certain tendencies that lean to specific potentialities, of which this book helps identify, understand and how to move in harmony with it.
It helped me identify many tendencies I noticed about myself (some of which you mentioned) which I noticed but could not understand why I was doing that, but no one else seemed to.
Your vision can be an inspiration, but if you don’t bring your high minded ideals down into the stratosphere at least, then it may never take form.
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