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Monique7nuns · 07-20-2008, 05:17 PM

Wow.. you people are amazing. I don't know how to thank you for so much advice and words of encouragement.. as if you all are messenger-angels from the universe trying to help guide me, trying to help me turn this around.

It so frustrating when there is nothing more I'd like to do than change and it seems as if I am trying so hard to only get the same result.. it IS insanity. An insane cycle of karma.. the way it's "supposed" to be. It makes me wanna scream, go eat more crap processed sugar foods, go spend more money that I don't have and retreat into a movie marathon. All these compulsions feel so strong.

I'd just like to take my head off and screw it back on straight. Then I'd fall into a very deep, restful sleep for about 3 solid hours or more and when I wake up the constant pain in my neck would be gone forever right along with all the negative emotional baggage, fear and paralysis. I'd feel energized and alive and my path would be clear. All hesitation to act would be gone and I'd know exactly what I need to do in order to bring about the changes.

You know in the past few weeks I had a remote clearing reiki done, I started listening to Joe Vitale's clearing audio and I started the free Silva Life System including my first alpha system centering audio. I bet a few issues have been getting a jostled around in my sub conscious and are working themselves out, sending me on a roller coaster ride - that's not PMS..

I know I'll get through this.. I've just got too much stuff rattling around in my head. I don't know if it's the right sort of message to send to the universe to let it know I'm ready.. BUT perhaps taking those 3 days completely off as recommended earlier in the week IS the best place to start. No computer, no news.. lots of breathing, reading, relaxing, outdoor exercise, yoga and cooking.

I'll be back on Thursday to reread Steve's series this past week as well as this discussion and see how it feels.

Btw.. this week I unsubscribed from all the other personal development feeds I was reading and decided to just focus on this one. It's the first site I found and a year later, the one I'm going to stick with. Thanks so much Steve and everyone else!

07-20-2008, 05:17 PM	#86 (permalink)
Monique7nuns Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Posts: 215	Wow.. you people are amazing. I don't know how to thank you for so much advice and words of encouragement.. as if you all are messenger-angels from the universe trying to help guide me, trying to help me turn this around. It so frustrating when there is nothing more I'd like to do than change and it seems as if I am trying so hard to only get the same result.. it IS insanity. An insane cycle of karma.. the way it's "supposed" to be. It makes me wanna scream, go eat more crap processed sugar foods, go spend more money that I don't have and retreat into a movie marathon. All these compulsions feel so strong. I'd just like to take my head off and screw it back on straight. Then I'd fall into a very deep, restful sleep for about 3 solid hours or more and when I wake up the constant pain in my neck would be gone forever right along with all the negative emotional baggage, fear and paralysis. I'd feel energized and alive and my path would be clear. All hesitation to act would be gone and I'd know exactly what I need to do in order to bring about the changes. You know in the past few weeks I had a remote clearing reiki done, I started listening to Joe Vitale's clearing audio and I started the free Silva Life System including my first alpha system centering audio. I bet a few issues have been getting a jostled around in my sub conscious and are working themselves out, sending me on a roller coaster ride - that's not PMS.. I know I'll get through this.. I've just got too much stuff rattling around in my head. I don't know if it's the right sort of message to send to the universe to let it know I'm ready.. BUT perhaps taking those 3 days completely off as recommended earlier in the week IS the best place to start. No computer, no news.. lots of breathing, reading, relaxing, outdoor exercise, yoga and cooking. I'll be back on Thursday to reread Steve's series this past week as well as this discussion and see how it feels. Btw.. this week I unsubscribed from all the other personal development feeds I was reading and decided to just focus on this one. It's the first site I found and a year later, the one I'm going to stick with. Thanks so much Steve and everyone else!