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Originally Posted by emf  Most fundamentalist Christians wouldn't approve of a clubdancing/theatre/arts/fashion girl their son brought home, especially if she writes the sort of movie review you did about Jesus Camp. I'm a little surprised you thought the mother might. Maybe Spirit was just trying to get you to trust your instincts more in the future.
I can understand why you're reluctant to move to the midwest. That usually means a person has given up on her biggest dreams. Some people do go back though and you could be one of them. Just don't do anything that makes you add "shame" to the list of words you use to describe what you feel about yourself. Only you know what those things are. Good luck. |
Oh, noooo! I never dated him, ever. Ew. No. He's like my big brother
The thing is, supposedly- from my best friend and his viewpoints, his mother never had a problem with that, because he's been surrounded by that sort of people all his life. She seemed to just accept it. I don't know. I guess I can be really naive, because I'm very accepting of people. I think you're right about trusting my instincts, though.
I wouldn't say that moving to the midwest is giving up. Truth be told, I just don't like the politcal climate out there (I'm a really hardcore liberal), and I'm artsy/gothy/glam. I don't know. It just doesn't seem like a good fit. Yeah, I don't want to do anything gross, either.
What sucks is that I just found out that his mother has been pushing to throw me out, just because. No good reason. Just because. She's also really, really been haraguing him and putting his security at risk. Now that she sees she overplayed her hands, she's trying to offer him the place for free to keep him under her control. It's all very screwed up. You don't want him...you do? How awful for him! He never told me, but was getting resentful that I didn't just somehow *know* and thank him (I have a feeling that honesty and communication weren't skills that were taught to him very well). I got this from my best friend...not him, still not him. He's acting like he's fine and happy. It's really messed up. He also has very little empathy, and doesn't realize that I may be a bit of a mess because of all of these disclosures.
It's going to be okay. I just have to be upfront with landlords about the fact that I do lots of different things to earn money, and I'm going to have great references. Plus, I have bank statements that show good deposits used well, so...I think that will go a long way towards helping things.
One of my friends offered me a room in her house with her husband and four kids (!). I said, "Thank you, honey, but...no." I just think that it's time for me to not be depending on others. I have to be flying on my own. Cliche, I know, but it feels true, and I think that Spirit is dictating that I need to depend on all these talents that I have to make my way. If that weren't the case, I would have landed a job by now. I find that I'm having to stick up for what I feel, for where I want to move (closer to NYC...not the best neighborhoods, but really great transportation), and for what I really want to do (I don't like being around many people, lots of noise, crowds). So, I think that I'll be alright as long as I'm honest with myself.
Thank goodness for my grandfather, though. He has a whole bunch of stuff for me to sell on Ebay, in addition to the things I already sell, and they're things that will net a good amount of ready cash. Yay.