[laceyjade10]

I am new to talking and discussing these subjects with other people.
I have felt different my whole life and out of place with the people I grew up with. (In Redneckville, La) If I tried to talk about what I felt, I was usually told or looked at like I was crazy. So, I would often wonder if I was just crazy... So many times I felt depressed and frustrated because I would have experiences that were undeniablebly REAL but when I would try tell someone because I was so amazed and excited, I could feel their doubt and disbelief.
So, when I read here, I get emotional because my whole life I didnt know another soul who felt or talked about similiar things. Or had similiar experiences...
So, I apologize because I tend to ramble and make long posts because I have so much to tell that I want to hear other's opinions about!

But, anyway, on to the topic question...

I have dreams that come true, but I don't control them. They come out of the blue and sometimes don't make sense for up to a couple of years... Usually, they involve me personally, but I also have dreams about tragedy's I see a few months later in the news. Usually, the event is farther away and I couldnt have done anything to stop it or warn somebody, because the dream was too vague. But when watching what happened on TV, it will be exact words or scenes from my dream that shows me it is the exact event I dreamt and I feel so guilty like maybe I could have done something...
One of my more major examples. When I was a kid I had a dream that was so vivid I wrote it down. I dreamt that a big passenger airplane crashed into the back of our pasture bursting into flames. I ran out to see if I could possibly save anyone, but the plane was obliterated. But some luggage had photos instead of nametags. ( how luggage survived, I dont know) I saw two different vivid photos that stuck in my mind. Almost ten years later, 9/11 happened. A couple of weeks after 9/11 I watched a show on the plane that had crashed in a field that day, and they showed some photos of the people on the plane. Two of those people's faces had been the one's I had seen in that dream almost 10 years earlier..What is that?
Also, I had another dream about 2 months before 9/11 that I was in a downtown area and a man was about to jump off a highrise building. I didnt know why he was jumping, but for some reason I could see every detail of the man. I could see his navy suit and red striped tie flapping over his shoulder as he fell, his brown hair flapping and his green eyes, the tears instantly dried against his face from the wind. I could see and feel his horror and sadness. I was sickened by that dream. A couple months later, the morning of 9/11, I woke up and turned on the TV whilegetting breakfast. The planes had already hit so I didnt immediately know what was going on. Just then, the news helicopter zoomed in on THAT GUY from my dreams as he let go of the window and fell. The camera wasn't as close to his face as I was in the dream, but close enough...I felt like I knew him or something and felt so guilty. It dropped me to my knees, crying, and I didnt even know the extent ofwhat hadgone on yet. I mean what is that? Can you work on controlling it better or something. I have other dreams that will just be of a random 5 min or so of my life, and then a month or even a year later it will be almost like De Ja Vu except I know I have dreamt it before. Also do the same thing periodically with events in the news...I even think I may have dreamed how my step-dad will die. But they dont want to hear things like that, plus, it's a random violent act, so hard to predict.

I dont know if I can read someone or necessarily tell their future. But, I can talk to a person for a min and get feelings all about them. Like, I can tell if they are abused, or mean-hearted, just get the feel of them, without knowing even them. I thought maybe I was just real good at profiling people, but I get stuff very often that you couldn't possibly know from being a good profiler. It is just an instinct that kicks in. Like, this person is angry, abused, previously abused, fake, mean, pervert, etc. But, I never tell them when I feel them because I'm afraid I'm wrong or there's really no point. I have those gut instincts also when people are lying. It can even be simple white lies that dont matter, but that instinct kicks in, so it bugs me and I want to call them on it, but don't.

Also, and this is weirder to talk about because none of this is provable, but I feel things around me. Spirits maybe. Its not all the time. It's just random. In a building, house, outside.. Nothing too distinct, just know I feel the presence... Also, you know how when someone walks up behind you and startles you. I do that every now and then. Like, I get startled and expect my son or someone to be right beside me, look down or back and there is no one there. So I feel like an idiot but I know SOMETHING did just startle me...

Anyway, is there any terminology that fits these things? Is there maybe excercises or techniques to hone in on it?