[laceyjade10]

Early stages of schizophrenia? Nice, I guess I'll have to look those up...

But thanks for the suggestions, I'm going to try it.

Where I live in Louisiana, I dont know any people that think or talk like people do on this forum. Most people are strictly religious in my area and immeditately dismiss any of these subjects as crazy talk. So it's nice to hear some positive and insightful feedback. I love this.

But, here's another (schizo) example. When I was a kid I told my parents I could feel the spirits of native americans on our land and I felt like I was connecting with them. I didnt actually see an apparittion but I could feel the spirit in my mind much like I did that night but just not as overwhelming, and only one or so. I also said that earth, the trees, the woods had their own spirits and I could feel them as well when I spent time in our woods. ..Well, my parents freaked out! Our church attendance picked up to include Wednesdays as well as Sundays, lol.
First,they said that Indians historically, were not in our area..Then they said that if I was seeing things it was evil or I was dilusional. They wanted to know who I had heard talk like this or where I had heard such nonsense..
So, I rarely talked about those things again and felt very depressed.
But a few months after that I was sitting under a tree by the pond. My hand felt something smooth and it was an arrowhead. It was like confirmation for me and made me feel so much better. I showed my parents and they still never believed anything...

Just an added note, as if anyone cares, 10 years later, I was sitting under that same tree telling my son's how special that land was to me, telling them that it held alot of history, told them about the arrowhead, and as I was showing them where I found it, I found a civil war mini-ball! Kinda crazy, huh? ( I have a friend who works fora local battlefieldand confirmed what it was.)