All of these transitory things, is avoiding them worth permanently foregoing love, joy and freedom in your life? Choose.[/QUOTE]
If only it was that easy, I would have done it 7 years ago. I really do appreciate the replies and I did watch the youtube link.
I get couragous and think that I'm ready and then I get nervous and basically "chicken out" (for lack of better words).
My whole life I grew up in a house where I felt like I don't belong and was constantly tormented by an older brother who like to point out my inperfections on a daily basis. I guess by actually telling them that I am indeed different is a feeling of losing to them. That they win something and they were right. I know that by not being honest with them, I'm only running from the inevitable...my tank is running out of fuel!! This running is getting old and I'm out of excuses for when they question me.
This is one struggle that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
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