"I have a daily battle with my mind over the way I feel that I am and the way the world sees me."
Thats the problem right there, being in your head. Your mind will never stop being doubtful, insecure and imagining how other people so there is no use in fighting your mind. When you fight or argue with your mind you always lose because the mind wants this. You can never convince it to act differently than it is designed to do.
It's a dualistic machine that even if you tell yourself nice things it will almost automatically tell you the opposite.
On top of that you are living in fear of what other people think of you. You aren't choosing love but fear. You are uncomfortable in your skin, not as confident etc because you are listening to your mind and identifying with your fears. The only way out of your mind and to stop caring what other people think of you and finally become comfortable is by not identifying with the mind and pushing past your fears.
Fears are based in illusions and the mind loves this. Being fearful limits you and puts boundaries over you. The mind/ego loves this control it has over you. Every time that you push past a fear and your heart rate calms down you always go "wow, that wasn't that bad"-it almost never is.
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