 being comfortable in your own skin
I am 32 and I still am not comfortable in my own skin. I have a daily battle with my mind over the way I feel that I am and the way the world sees me.
I live two lives. One that my family and co-workers see and one that only my friends and partner sees. Im gay and I hide inside myself only tell those who are gay that I am too. I haven't had the courage or comfort to tell my family that I am living with my partner. I just keep to myself and avoid all family functions. I don't include my partner in my extended family for fear of rejection and being mad a mockery of. I'm basically scared that they will hate me and avoid them. My girlfriend is a wonderful human being that anyone would be proud to date. I feel like I'm short changing both our lives by hiding our love.
I just don't know how to look my mom in the eyes and tell her without falling apart. It's killing me inside and causing major depression.
Any suggestions??
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