[Zwynd]

Originally Posted by NDavid

To the best of my understanding, this is still a drakworker mindset, because it's still placing a set value on people (the idea that if you have alot, then one loss doesn't matter).

Hmm, you have a point there.

I think that a lightworker wouldn't feel much of a sense of ejection becuase they're already connected to source/love. It'd be more like a feeling of accepting that the person isn't vibing on the same level and is on their own path, and having understanding for that person instead of placing the needy expectation on them of accepting you.

Ahh, I guess that would be it; feeling loved regardless of if someone goes down a different path or 'vibe.' I personally don't care if someone goes a different path, in fact, I hope they don't bother going down mine. I hate sharing. =P

Yeah, that sounds like the other extreme, nice analogy. But if from my understanding of Steve's post, the darkworker has to pour out their creative energies to others some times to pay their karmic debt.

Sort of like paying taxes, eh? Hmm, interesting. I seemed to have missed that part.

Whether or not you could call me a DW, I know in my own life my 'karma' or way of thinking used to be hell. Everything came at me and I've almost died many, many times in my life. Eventually I said 'screw you' to the world and started doing what I could to make my own life safer/better without worrying about the feelings of others. Things changed and my health/mind started improving.

I do help others occasionally however as it was often easier to share a bit than to get caught and explain why I took all the cake for myself.

I suppose if you're in the darkworker mindset and don't feel genuine love for them then yeah it'd definitely be robotic. For me, there've been times when I felt highly motivated when feeling compassion for someone.

I can't feel love. Well actually, that's a lie. I've been able to feel love from myself (to others) strongly maybe around 10 times in my life. It never lasted long, though.

The last time I felt love was a half a year ago when I was petting my house bunny. She nuzzled up to me without any expectation in the world other than "Pet me, now!" I loved that in her and I felt very happy for her as she knew exactly what she wanted and knew how to get it. More so that she felt I could provide her with the happiness.

Never felt that again, even though she's given the same demands.

Interestingly enough, the other day I could actually feel how a human being loved me from a non-logical route. As in, they couldn't explain how they loved me and I was still aware of their feeling. It felt kind of neat to be aware of it but I still couldn't turn around and give that feeling back, even if I tried. If there was such a thing as a love muscle for others I'm sure mine is like this big [ ]

I feel this state of euphoria at times when I realise new universal truths or when I've actually felt connected to source. I find that at those times I feel the sense of euphoria and motivation to the point where I have to share it with someone.

Most of the times I feel euphoria I can't really share it with anyone, especially in words. I don't really bother to anymore. I may try and share it in actions via creating something or in some cases messing up/breaking old things/habits.

Thanks for your thoughts, NDavid.