August,
My family experience is much different than yours however I too felt the feeling of hopelessness once before in my life due to living with a family who had very different beliefs from my own.
They were all cut-throats, thieves, murderers. The only half decent of the bunch were either murdered or 'converted.' I was thought of as the lesser being, a slave, if you will.
I did not want to live like them or serve them. Some were trapped in religion and others seemed to worship the god of revenge. They all had a very low energy focus and no desire for self-improvement. Trying to change or teach even one of them in a small way put a great drain upon me.
I left.
I literally moved out of the city and even across the other end of the continent to get away from them. I haven't contacted them, haven't looked back and don't ever regret it.
In just a few weeks my health improved drastically as did my self confidence and my energy. I was then able to spend more efficient time reflecting on my growth and discovering overlooked health issues as well as other concerns I had to put aside while trying to keep up with those people. I went from a very ill person who could barely get out of the bed due to extreme exhaustion/weakness to a person who has boundless energy and a desire for personal growth.
How I solved my problem may not be good advice in your case, however my post is to say that you are not the only person who has struggled with family before and there could be MANY options for you for growth in which you haven't considered.
My advice for you is this: Keep your eyes open and don't forget to stay true to what you believe in. In the end that is really all that you have.
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