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Old 07-10-2008, 09:34 PM   #3 (permalink)
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Hi Bitsy, great idea to start this new thread.

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My update:
I quit my job, as I mentioned, at the end of March in the midst of a total breakdown and before I consider taking on another job or making a committment to any long-term thing, including what country to live in, I am doing intensive therapy for some months with the goal of getting my past to stop interfering with my present.

I am also...very unagressively pursuing during this time, more as a hobby and for my enjoyment, a weblog/website. It will be a place where I can freely express myself and aspire to be the me I have always wanted to be, but that had always got stifled by all the pain.
I'm doing something similar to that right now, in terms of figuring out what I want to do. I quit my job 5 weeks ago, spent the first 2 weeks on vacation and the last three weeks I've been at home. The first two weeks at home I spent mostly in pain, deep fears and pain striking me about my circumstance, however this week I completely shifted my focus to ask myself questions like what kind of inspiring career would I love to have? What would I do if I only had 6 months to live? What would I do if I had all the money in the world (so money worry isn't a problem)? Who do I want to be? I'm feeling more peaceful right now delving deep and searching for the answers to these questions.

I'm also going through some coaching online to get past a huge limiting blocks that keeps me from fully exploring the answers to the above.

Unlike you though, I'm pretty much set on where to live - I intend to move to Las Vegas in August. I've felt a big nudge to go live there for the last 3-4 years - even though I'm not a gambler, nor a party-goer, nor a night-life kinda guy and the last time I visited Las Vegas was probably in 1994. Even while living in Alabama, I just felt this strong pull to live there, however I had no means to move there. When I moved to Oklahoma a year ago, I again thought so much about moving to Las Vegas. I even thought maybe I should start job hunting in Las Vegas so I could move out of Oklahoma as soon as possible - and this was before Steve even wrote his blog post about how great Las Vegas is. So, unless something truly amazing and unexpected happens, I'll keep my site on moving there. I am kind of under a time pressure though, I'm being lovingly kicked out of my place by the end of July. However, I don't feel ready to start making the arrangements to actually move out until I've dealt with my limiting blocks that I'm being coached, and until I find something so inspiring to build a career and a life around. So that's what I'm focused on for now.

Bitsy - what kind of countries would you be open to living in?

Edit: For the first time ever, I've also decided that I will absolutely refuse to work again at a job unless I feel it's something that aligns with what I love to do. If that means I die hungry, then so be it. That's my stance.

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