[richie111]

Hi everyone, I am having a problem with this girl and need lots of help.
Here's my story from the start.
I am in my late teens, and have never been in a relationship earlier.
I am currently doing my engineering in computer science and along side running a successfull business with 2 employes and quite successful financially in early age.
I was a carefree, very confident, and above average looks guy.
I have success in every part of my life except relationship.
Here's how everything started, I met a girl with not so good looks through a common friend, For whom I was not at all attracted. But lack of opposite sex friends made me start a friendship with her, just for the sake of it.
She was a complete negative personality girl with nothing much in her. After we met, she started sending me lots of sms and calls. I use to talk with her for hours on and on.later our friendship became strong and we started taking strolls in park for hours. all we use to do was talking on every topic on earth. She started flirting with me and even i encouraged her and our flirting kept on increasing. I taught the girl a lot about being positive and living the life fully. she was very attracted to me (atleast I felt that).
Then I started making mistakes, I thought I will never make this girl my gf, so y nt ask her for casual sex, I did that, which she rejected. But I didnt cared much anyway. but we continued our friendship which was becoming strong. I was enjoying the friendship a lot and really found out she is a confident, ethical and a hell lot of challenging girl. The girl had lots of guyfriends I discovered, even more than the number of friends I have (I am very social with guy friends and I have a group of very good close friends)
The girl always hurted my ego one way or the other and I really hated her for that, but thats exactly made her want more. She used to challenge me a lot in games, and many times I defeated her and she defeated me too sometimes.
Our flirting was increasing all the time, with me being more and more attracted to her. Her personality was completely different than me. I was happy that I started having feelings for her and she reciprocated the same way. But I didnt wanted to make her my gf because she was not good looking and not really my type of girl. She was good to talk, but highly superficial.
I told her I am getting feelings for her, which I dont want, so we should stop talking and even took a week break, but I found she has become my need now. We carried on flirting and my feelings for her became intense.
Atlast, I gave up and thought that I should make her my gf, irregard of her not being class 'a' attractive.
I decided I just cant stay without her and one day went to her class and took her with me to the park and said the words 'I love you' (thats the first time I ever said that to any girl).
Till this time I was very confident, full of life and highly positive person.
SHE REJECTED me, saying she loves someone else. Everything came down on me and I was very hurt, bcoz she never told me that, even when I had given her lots of hints before i told her i love her.
I was very very hurt, because she was not just my love but also a friend with whom I shared a lot abt my life and she did the same, except abt her love.
I really stopped talking to her, she called me the other day and told me sorry a lot of time.
While I was having intense hatred with her, that i wanted to slap her hard and take the revenge (I knw this is a wong thing). Because she tried a lot in getting my interest and I was hurt that y she did all that wen she didnt wanted anything more from me. she said she just wanted me as a good friend.
She agreed her mistake and apologised.
And being the sensitive person I am, I accepted her apology but my ego didnt allowed me to confess to even myself that she was my real first love which was unsuccessfull. I even confessed to her that I wanted to slap her and I am sorry for that.
I also told her that it was my ego which made me want her, but i never really loved her.which was something i said just to convince more to myself than her , Part of my thinking was responsible for this. I never accepted defeat and had always got a lot of success in everything i do.
I have a habit of never quitting. later wen i talked to her, I discovered
that the guy she loves has clearly told her that he would never marry her due to family problems and had never commited to her. I told her that the guy dont love you and have since never commited to her and its better to leave her. but she was a heck of a stubborn girl, she even said things like she couldnt love anyone else in her life nw. The guy she loved is 5 years older to both of us and is very successfull in his life, definately above average. I even told her I will help her get her love, but she said 'no'. II told her that i will be with her through all thick and thin, for her entire life. but no positive response.
The girl also has a track record of 6-7 guys before me who had told her 'I love you' and she rejected all.
She is intensely in love with that guy.
I started having strong feelings again hence i stopped talking to her and started dating some girls. but was never able to divert myself.
I had become highly underconfident in my life, had also faced a stagnancy in my business. all my expansion plans I never did, just because my personal life was in dumps.
but i was unable to press everything inside me and after 2-3months started talking to her again (we did see each other daily due to common classes and also had casual talks just for formality as we had lots of common friends) and she started her usual chit chat again. again in just two days I told her abt the intensity of my love to her. I told her how my life spiinned due to her, how much pain i feel everytime i saw her and all abt my emotions. I even started caring less abt my family and friends and became a negative person. The only reason was that I was not ready to accept defeat in love.
Even after showing trmemndous intensity, her answer was the same we can be good friends, nothing more. she again apologised and all.
I again planned to revenge in my mind, but again forgived wen i talk to her.
The biggest problem is i dont want to let go or accept defeat, I just cant stand it. No matter how many times i decide to let go, I cant.
Infact it has become egostic nw. (I am not at all sure abt tht, but thats how i am feeling nw)
I just cant let go. I strongly feel i cant be defeated by a girl like her.
Neither is she ready to let go her love.
I was always honest and a good ethical person. But nw I think its all futile.
I have recently lot a read abt pick up artist and decided to try all the tricks on her. My friends say she is the type of girl impossible to get because she has a hell lot of guy friends and knows everything abt guys.
She cant quit on that guy and I cant quit on her.
Please help and tell me what should i do? Should i try harder? I have treid to quit many times, but its impossible for me.
Please help.