I'm a huge proponent of LoA and have had a lot of success with it...
HOWEVER
What sort of
actions are you taking?
You've clearly listed that you're down on yourself because you're middle aged, live with your parents, have a horrid resume, and no romantic prospects.
Obviously, you have some sort of social anxiety and low self-esteem. Are you in therapy? Have you tried EFT, or TAT, or NLP or BSFF?
Besides AAIIG, what other self-help are you looking into?
What about taking some online college courses?
If I want to be a published writer (which I do) - just talking about my fear of success or failure is not nearly as effective as
downloading a hypnosis mp3 to overcome those limiting thoughts.
So, what are you DOING to improve your life?