My fiancé committed suicide after I broke up with him.
If I had to do it all over again, knowing what I know now - I'd still leave him.
All over the world, every day, millions of people break up. Millions of people cheat on each other and abuse each other. Thousands are tortured and starved everyday. And yet -- most people have the will to live.
What this suggests is - the will to live is NOT controlled by external circumstances. The will to live in a deeply personal choice. In actuality, you are not so important that he would kill himself over you. Even my man, who swore he'd kill himself if I left him - he didn't really kill himself because of me. I was just a front, a justification, for something much deeper.
Let's say that your bf was in a murderous rage. You broke up with him, and he went out and killed the family next door. Are you responsible? Are you the "true" murderer? Of course not. Well, suicide is like murder, except it's self-murder.
Just as he's responsible for his life - you are responsible for yours. You need to make the decisions right for you.
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