Thank you all for your replies. They're really insightful and I'm not sure if I'm saying it properly but it's like you guys have gone past the questions I appear to be asking and answered the ones I really needed to ask.
@Alexjstrandberg
I'm amazed at how spot-on you are, kind of tempted to defend myself but I think you're right. I
am afraid of weirding him out. In him, I see a much braver version of myself and when he's around I'm able to do more things outside of my comfort zone. I think that's what I'm afraid of losing. And thanks for the affirmations. It was funny saying them out, but they worked lol.
@The Cloud
Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm not sure if I can relate to it yet, but I'll keep your advice in mind
@melonstar
Your questions really made me think. I don't have the answers to all of them yet and I certainly hope it's not just
the idea of the relationship I like although I suspect it's a little of both
. It doesn't sound very fair to him
You're right, I need to deal with myself first before I can share anything with him or anyone else for that matter. Thank you again!