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Originally Posted by Playlife  But why do you want to be useful anyway? What happens when you're useless? What if you are doing something that gives you great joy and at the same time is totally and utterly useless(for others and yourself alike)? Have you been told that you're lazy? |
Hmmm... you're asking so pertinent questions
Yes I've always been told by my mom that I'm lazy but I don't think "I'm useless" is about being useful or useless in the conventional sense of it.
Like, when I was a student and having a job as a programmer, I was feeling so useless that I always thought I should kill myself. I was producing programs which is "useful", but what I was doing didn't make any deeper sense for me.
On the other hand, when I think that creating harmony is my purpose, and I dance tango argentino, then it's a completely different thing. Dancing tango could be seen as a completely useless hobby, but in my eyes it totally makes sense. There are many ways to dance tango, you can do it in a good looking yet disharmonious way, or in a harmonious way. Tango is a big passion of mine, and it's all about harmony, in the communication between the dancers, with the music, but also on an energy level, in your own body... I cannot really explain it with words, but I believe that dancing tango is creating harmony, for myself, my partner and all the people watching us.
"I'm useless" is more a deep anxiety that I won't find my way, that all doors are closed, and that I'll end up doing something meaningless.