Hi Rose,
Just wanted to say I could have written your post! Like you I acquired a belief that 'I am useless.' Like you I am a scanner, good a a multitude of things but nothing really fits. Like you people tell me I am wasting my potential.
The tears I have cried over this flippin purpose thing have wrung me out.
How I used to envy the girls at my school who just knew they wanted to be a doctor or an architecht or a housewife. If only I had that clear ambition!
Some things that have helped me. One is that my coach said to me that possibly what I end up doing hasn't been invented yet. It's up to me to create that new idea by synthesising all the things I have learned into one new unique approach. That appeals to me and allows me to keep learning. I'm going to be a pioneer! (Even Einstein had a day job as a clerk).
Also I have just recently taken the laid back approach. What happens, happens. I've stopped forcing it. Yes I don't feel like I am 'progressing' but things are happening. After a year of qualififying in a particular therapy training but not actually practising, four people I know want me to run a course for them and have offered more than I was going to charge as 'mates-rates'. Is it my purpose? Probably not. Will I learn something that helps me on my way. Oh yes.
I'm going to look at Angela's method for clearning beliefs. Do you have a link?
Also I'm working on a lot of emotional clearing at the moment. A friend has just done John Demartini's breakthrough weekend. Expensive (£1000) but she says it was worth every penny. worth looking into if you can find the money. She's helping me work through the emotional baggage I've picked up along the way.
Just wanted to say to you, you are not alone. Besides which it isn't anyone's business what your purpose is but your own.
speak soon
xxx
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