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Originally Posted by carenkh  I'm a *little* frightened of being left here, in this space of vulnerability, un-resolvedness, and fear. |
I know that feeling. But know that we won't abandon you and that this is a normal and temporary reaction to the process. I think it's another great thing that you feel this way. When you get close to the truth, your ego (or whatever you want to call it) is going to try to scare you back into your hole...into complacency or denial.
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Originally Posted by carenkh It's really, really hard for me to feel those feelings I felt as a child. And I feel like I've hit a wall, and Angela's asking "I am...." and I don't know how to fill in that blank. I believe I will, though, when the time is right. Angela and I will talk soon, and doing some of this out loud may get me to a different place. |
Talking out loud to someone who can facilitate the process is much easier than trying to do this stuff using the written word and waiting for a response. All of these feelings you are having are normal to I think. They were for me and probably for everyone that has worked with Angela's coaching on this. Part of my issue with feeling like I'm nothing was that I felt like I was doing the process all wrong and would fail at it. Um, hello, exactly the point
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As far as going back and feeling those feelings. It hurts. I found a lot of compassion in myself for that little girl who was so hurt and scared and I also found out how strong I am -- how a child can feel that pain and still go forward is amazing to me.
Again, just wanted to offer some encouragement. Lots of love.