[Rosie]

I don't know what to do anymore. I am not depressed. I don't hate life. I am actually suprisingly happy. The thing is that I have crippling anxiety. I've had it for as long as I can remember. I'll save you the long details, but basically, I've suffered from selective mutism, panic disorder, anxiety disorder, avoidant personality disorder etc.. I've always had a really high tolerance for anxiety, but about a year ago I went on medication to help reduce my anxiety. Now, for the first time, I know what it's like to not feel anxiety all the time. Now I have NO tolerance for it whatsoever. I refuse to go in to any situation that causes anxiety. Except...I have a job this summer. It causes me A LOt of anxiety. I really really want to quit, because I hate every moment of it. By the end of the day I am exhausted from all the anxiety and covered in sweat. But, I know if I quit, I won't have any money for my final year of college in September. I've searched literally for weeks online, trying to find internet jobs where I won't have to interact with people..but they are all scams. I don't know what to do. Do I continue working a job that causes me to have panic attacks on a daily basis, or do I quit and disappoint my parents? Please, I'd really appreciate any help on the subject.

Thank you