If you cannot buy a work of art today...Be One. I had a year of falling in love with men who did not return what for me was so real. Please dont get me wrong, it had been years since I felt attrction to anyone so it came as a big surprise. I think the bigger reason for this stuff happening was all a part of my waking up to the fact that I had bought into thoughts and feelings of my worthlessness as a man and affirmed it with each mistake I had made especially the frighteningly humiliating ones!I had the same tendency to go for men who could fill up the blank areas of my less than prosperous path. I am now in the position of discovering that the areas i believe I lack in can be addressed by me myself. I let myself actually look at them. Get still, feel the feeling whatever it is while all the time being aware of my breath and not believing my thoughts. I just observe. My thoughts no more or less important than my breathing or my sensing. I sit with them until I have pushed myself far enough ie not given up because of discomfort at the first hurdle. slowly raise them to my conscious mind and hand them over to my higher self to have a go. then I wait and observe little shifts in my attitude. I have tried to word this so that it makes sense but I dont know if Ive succeeded. Well done on this post though. It is especially welcome because there isnt a hint of self pity in it. Sounds to me like you have a good thing coming...and all through something that was/is so painfull. Another trick I have picked up is to practice gratitude frequently over the emotionally unpleasant things I go through. Seems to open me up to manifesting the real blessings hidden in the disappointments!!! We might not be able right now to get the works of art we desire into our lives but there is every day the oppertunity of becoming one ourselves...there cannot be a more powerful affirmation than conciously deciding each morning that I am worthy of great art today in my being. body and soul.I think its called turning lemons into lemonade!!! All the best.
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