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Originally Posted by Angela  Would you prefer to do a little digging in your memory, or would you prefer to proceed without doing that? |
Last year, I flashed on a very vivid childhood memory. It really knocked me for a loop at the time! I felt myself in my childhood body - I was probably 6, or 8 - I was looking down. I could *see* the clothes that I had been wearing. I was being hit. I don't remember the hitting - what I remember was thinking, "You can't get me anymore. This won't hurt me any more. This is one way you can't get me." There was such strength and determination in that little body -- and mind! So a part of me definitely got hidden away at that point. I do not directly remember being hit as a child, but both of my sisters say we were. This is as close as I've come to remembering.
This memory, while painful at the time, was VERY valuable to me. It came because when my youngest son would cry, I would get *angry* with him! I mean, he never saw that, but I felt it, so strongly. And that's so unlike me, I prayed and asked to be shown why I was angry. I had actually forgotten that prayer, until I saw and felt this vision a few days later. I haven't done the mindful work to see the connection between the two, but my anger subsided.
I think, at this point, digging would be... burdensome. It would put me in a place where I couldn't function as well. Just that one memory had me kind of fuzzy and scared for days. So - not now.
Unless -
you believe to dig would be of the most value. I'm willing to go there if it would make a big difference.