I'm exactly like you people. But few days ago i was hanging around with my friend and started about our favourite topic, girls etc. Then I said one sentence, they all shut up looked at me and one friend said : "You have so great way of looking at life". I felt happy about that, i felt that reading that huge amount of books is finally giving results. I am changing but i'm not fully aware of it. You're probably not aware of it too, but watch around every day. Some small thing like that sentence of my friend will give you sign that you are doing something and that books influenced you more than you can imagine.