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Originally Posted by Wax Frog  Oh, boy don't I?  The "inner skeptic" who wants to wrestle with the idea of IM/LoA is a subset of it. Only in the past two years or so have I begun to diligently practice quieting my mind, giving me a great deal of peace (but not yet complete) from these voices.
I have lots of thing about my messed up life I can talk about, but to put it in a nutshell, I've invented myself as one those middle-aged-loner-in-his-parent's-basement-who-works-temp-jobs types that are a favorite target of late-night hosts... There, it's out now. Hate to think about it, let alone talk about it, but if I'm going to purge I have to PURGE!
I want to invent myself out of that mode. I don't want to become a gregarious public-immersed entrepreneur, mind you, but I definitely want to slide away from the end of the spectrum I'm currently riding on...
(I dont' suppose there are any MALIHPBWWTJ-Anon groups out there? ) |
well, it sounds like your ego is fighting with your new found inner peace doesn't it. It's gonna dredge up all the junk it can to get you back to being unconscious so it can regain its throne.
Inventing yourself as you desire to be right now is your answer. All the other crap the voice in your head is bringing up isn't real - that was a false self that was unconsciously created - now you can consciously create the person you desire to be. Once we find a way for you to let go of this shadow self you're hanging onto.
hmm let me think a bit...