 Lost a friend
I read this forum when I was in the process of making a decision about a friend of mine. I decided that I will contact him again in several months wbut not sure I'll be able to. He is having a lot of problems and I wanted to fix them even though I knew I could not. Some days I wish I could hear his voice again because I cared for him very much and still do. The last time I talked to him, I got really depressed and anxious. I have since started a new regime of medications and I blamed him for it for a while. But now I know that it was all my fault because I was misinterpreting everything he was saying. He too needs to seek help and I hope that he will. I just really hate that I might lose him forever since I told him not to call me or email me and I'll contact him when I am ready and it might take several months. The truth is, he's separated from his wife and when he told me that, that is when all of the problems started. Because I started having feelings for him and I hated myself for having those feelings since he is wrong for me for so many reasons. I am hoping in a few months time, he will have worked things out with his wife or they will have gotten a divorce and he and I can start over without me having to tell him all of the problems I had with him and why I had to give him up for a while.
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