[bmlyeryk]

i knolw it was a bad time doing this at 8am so everyone else was awake at this time making noises. i had to wear earplugs.

i attempted the silva method. i first tried to relax my body from foot to head. i sat upright in my bed against the wall & put my hands on my knees. i tried deep breathing (im not that great at it). it wasnt to hard to avoid thoughts either.
i saw phosphenes when closing eyes (obviously). i counted from 100 to 0 (not 100% focused on the numbers though..only about 98% of the time). then i remembered to roll my eyes back...i may have done it wrong since i turned up my head as well & my eyes were tense). there 2was music playing in my mind (i always have music playing in my mind)...am i not supposed to have music playing in my head?
after counting the numbers my hands tightened their grip on my knees (is that wrong?) so i wasnt feeling entirely relaxed i dont think....but my arms & hands felt less circulated & more attached to my knees. i struggled to much to maintain my eyes rolled back...should i have kept my head down & NOT tilted back?
then i started the first specific affirmation (just one affirmation at this point)...did i directly enter the subconscious? (after the 'session' i counted back to 100 not fully focused...& came back to my own self i think)............plus my head got a aching surge of blood coming up after unfolding my legs

did i do this right or did i do it wrong? did i speak to the subconscious or not?
what areas should i improve in.....this was my first time