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Originally Posted by CroMagna  I'm testing out this darkworker theory but things keep happening that make wonder if I've even gotten past the gate. Like I'll listen to my mom's boring stories or I'll say please and thank you to strangers. I know darkworkers aren't necessarily mean, but they do everything for themselves. What's in it for me? Am I doing these things for myself ultimately? I don't want to have to over-analyze every move I make to make sure it was ultimately self-driven. Is there a shorthand way of knowing if you are in fact a darkworker? Especially for someone who's prone to doubting things? |
this is a new concept/label i heard only recently. "darkworker"
i suppose it should have been obvious, i've heard of lightworkers for ages. even considered myself one because it's a very engraciating self image).
frankly though, i think it's another false dichotomy, a duality trap.
the facade of altruism for example, why does it have to be so this way or that way?
right hand path, left hand path.
do all roads not lead to rome?! (as the old saying goes)
i'm sorry if this is going to come across overly "atman is brahman", but that's what it is!
what you do to serve your own interests, if they
truly serve your own interests, then they
truly serve everyone's interests.
and the more obvious one which will likely bring many a "darkworker" into the fold (especially these days i find) is that if what you do is a boon for everyone, you yourself as a member of "everyone", are also served.
if there's some folks still stumbling about early on their spiritual paths making those seperationist mistakes, then surely they'll learn from it soon enough right? i mean, you can only get away with so many lies and thefts and backstabbings and machivelian behaviour before you realise karma is real, right? even without the eventual realisation, it's got a whole "what doesnt kill you makes you stronger" feel to it. spiritual growth through challenge and yes, even adversity.
and what of those who've dabbled in arts to get passed karma? same thing. it snaps back at some point. there's no cheating it. even black holes eventually pop (Quazars, right? help me out with my astro physics incase i'm wrong anyone).
all may not be right with this world, but all is well. (...or so i read in the 11:11 progress group mailing list).
this whole topic was something that frustrated me for a while, like there was this truth i wasnt acknowledging and the attempts to merge this lightworker / darkworker duality into my consciousness were so uncomfortably jarring. i guess hanging around with alot of people into death metal at the time had something to do with the forcing out of this revelation.
also... the whole work thing...
i know there's a popular indoctrination going around that work is such a great thing and that you're weird, and somehow inferior if you don't embrace it... but i looked up many definitions of the word "work". it very commonly implies progress through struggle. now i'm all for progress (of sorts), but struggle? what if there were a way you could achieve
the same results, without the struggle. including what you learn from the experience. wouldnt that be a "better" way? get there in a jiffy. or faster! get there in a quanta!
easy now!
"man was not put here to toil in the mud" as i recall Terrence McKenna saying.
so, since someone early on in this thread said it's a conscious choice...
rather than opt for either or, light or dark....
rather than work....
...i'll choose...
whole being.