[CroMagna]

Hi everyone. I have already posted an intro. I have a pressing question about darkworking. I am an aspiring darkworker but I have some reservations.

I love my boyfriend very much and we have already had a mock wedding. He is a Satanist also and therefore is one of very few people who actually understand me fully. We are renting a house and I am moving out of my parents and in with him in about a week or two. I am excited to start my life with him. He means a lot to me and I worry about him a lot. I feel saddened when I think of him being in pain or enduring hardship.

Same with my mom. I love her a lot and think she's an amazing person. I really want to help her one day to get on her feet more financially.

With that said, can darkworkers love anyone besides themselves? I would feel horrible not loving these two special people. But I know that I'm not remotely qualified or interested in lightworking. Nor I am interested in the mediocrity and hypocrisy (not to mention evil) that stems from being non-polarized. The reason I'm not sure if darkworkers can love those close to them is that they aren't supposed to have love-energy flowing outward, or love-energy at all, but instead are supposed to be inward flowing and fear-based.