Gary,
I can identify with you in what you are going through. I spent a large part of my life in an almost inner darkness. I read countless books on self improvement and personal development and tried many other things to escape this. You hear a lot of talk about "visualisation" and "believe and you can achieve", but my spiritual energy was negative. As much as I believed in my head, until I got my inner energies right I stayed on the same gloomy treadmill. Each of us has an "inner light", that lights our thoughts and emotions and feelings, helping you to visualise the ideal situation you would like to be in, or partner, or the things you want in your life. Its worth looking into this some more. |