This is very exciting for me for starting on this project. Not only is it my first serious 30 day trial, its one where it isn't physical but also strongly interlinked deeply philosophical, spiritually and emotionally. The issue of polarity has been bugging the hell out of me that I have to try this and decide who I am.
For the next 30 days i will do this and may start a blog. I will keep you updated regularly in this thread or on my blog. I invite others to join me as I am really interested see others try it out and blog their daily events and mind-set. After the 30 days I will view the results and take a break for two weeks in which I will return to a neutral mindset. After I will go on the 30 day trial for light working in which I will start another thread.
Ultimately I will compare the two polarities and decide. But if I like neither I will choose a different path.
Thus the next 30 days my personal mission statement will be
"Love Thyself".
I want to state what my beliefs of a darkworker are and lightworker since I need a defined characteristic to follow.
There are two really good articles on darkworking that I enjoyed and learned a lot from;
What is a Darkworker? the great darkworker experiment by Gail
I prefer the term inner-worker for dark worker and outer-worker for light worker.
First of all I don't like the metaphor that inner-workers view themselves as God, as such a mindset is only that of a megalomaniac.
For me when I'm in inner working mode my mindset is that of a majestic feeling and loyalty, like that of a Soldier. The crucial difference is the only oath I have is to myself.
"I am the nation" is my rule. The outer worker would say "I serve the nation".
When I do something to improve my self being, it is through the ultimate expression of self love, respect and loyalty. Failure to help myself is the ultimate form of disgrace and betrayal.
Inner-workers look inwards to seek the divine and inspiration. Outer-workers act on the contrary.
Inner-workers are individual minded and I believe use the left brain more often, whilst the outer worker are more collective minded and use the right side of the brain. That is just the way I see it.
Inner workers can use joy, fear or whatever as long as it suits their personal agenda. But ultimately both inner and outer workers are extremely courageous and resilient.
This will be really challenging yet very fun experience.
Whenever I feel depressed or very down, I usually go into this state of light worker mode which gives me joy and energy. I know I Can no longer do that, but I can try to see as How I will affect the world. Also I will help others out as long as I don't lose out on something important.
I will have to fight my way of thinking and the years of social conditioning I've received and become extremely ambitious.
So those who interested in doing the 30 day darkworker trial, post your experience. Preferably on your own blog.