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Originally Posted by cylon  I thought the last girl was the one. And I was diving into IM self-development big time (at the time) so it coincided. Sounds like you and I both used a "relationship" as a catalyst for major self-improvement.
Lots of crazy synchronicities regarding her as well, so I was even more convinced. |
Same thing here, the synchronicities I came across even dated back, freaked me out to think of the Universe as a place so tied together through space and time. And would have convinced any one in my shoes that something was afoot.
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Originally Posted by cylon Now I'm not sure what it was. I think it happened for a reason as I'm much stronger and realistic about relationships now. Especially the last one. I'm tougher now from being weaker before.
So maybe we have multiple twin souls out there. Because I can see how each girl has brought me to new understanding that I wouldn't have had otherwise. |
I don't really believe that guy is/was my twin soul, but I think he's at least a soul buddy. I think if there is, there's probably just one twin soul out there but plenty of close souls aka soul mates, who get together with you or cross your path so you help one another to learn about life and grow spiritually. As far as new understanding goes, the same here; though painful, the lesson was invaluable, and if asked, I'd take a deep breath beforehand-admittedly- but I'd do it again.
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Originally Posted by cylon I don't see how to do it without no-strings. Maybe overcompensating for my previous "enmeshment" but I'm tired of putting too much importance on an individual. It takes all the fun and and good vibes away. I'm tired of having women trigger all my fears. It's not fair to them.
So I feel like going to the other extreme for awhile. It'll balance out at some point. |
I think everyone who participates in your life does so to the exact extent that he or she does cause his or her soul agrees to do so. There's no fair or unfair, there's just free will for everyone and beyond all the human drama stand immortal souls.
That's talking from a higher point of view. With both my feet in the mud, nevertheless I share you concern for the welfare of those who participate in my life in any way, I wouldn't want to bring harm to anyone if I can help it, and likewise I admittedly would like to stay away from harm myself.
For me, I think my soul has a tendency to distance university to prevent just that, so I don't have to live out any conceivable drama in persona and thus speed up the learning process.( maybe that's what movies were made for as well???) Like last time I was "seriously" interested -and the guy wasn't even within reach- within a few days, the Universe delivered to me a client who totally reminded me of this guy, and who happened to have been beating up his wife for years, I saw a movie about a Mr.Right whose wife had totally lost her life in their marriage and who was cheating on her. And I realised that those were reflections of my own fears in regards to the "serious" attachment I happened to focus on. Like fear of being helpless and hurt, loosing my independance or even worse myself, being betrayed and let down. And I looked at those reflections and thought, oh boy, it's gonna be a long way home to happiness. Pretty much felt like being back in school and just been given a pile of homework.
On the upside I guess it means I can skip living out at least some messy relationships to find out that I'm afraid of those very things and need to deal with those fears and loose that baggage in order to grow.That is somewhat of a relief.
I also think in the end things will sort themselves out naturally if one simply goes with the flow and does whatever feels the right thing for you at the moment.
