To express myself is to put myself in the wrong place at the wrong time.
It is an understatement to say that my speech is inadequate. I have trouble expressing what I mean - through body language, voice tone, and such - so the other side receives what I say, and I have crumbled relationships in seconds (maybe less) that way.
Other times, it is just socially awkward between me and anyone else because of my stumbling over words. (I either blurt out passionately or stumble and trip over my mouth - neither good)
I prefer to say nothing at all now.
Once, I freaked out over a cookie (atleast I can laugh about it now...sort of...), and a stream of verbal garbage just spewed from my mouth.
I should have just stayed quiet.
Arent there times that you have something so marvelous to say, but the moment to say it just passes by?
Controlling what I say and how I say it has always been a big issue for me.
Something nice, can turn into something ugly.
And I agree with Captain Cloudchaser that writing comes so much easier than speaking, and the theory that all the communicational issues probably come from a lack of the practice of it.
But on the topic of communication, is the only way to feel less awkward with others by the practice of it? If so, I'm a gonner...
