[cylon]

I thought the last girl was the one. And I was diving into IM self-development big time (at the time) so it coincided. Sounds like you and I both used a "relationship" as a catalyst for major self-improvement.

Lots of crazy synchronicities regarding her as well, so I was even more convinced. She seemed to be convinced too. Didn't work out.

Now I'm not sure what it was. I think it happened for a reason as I'm much stronger and realistic about relationships now. Especially the last one. I'm tougher now from being weaker before.

So maybe we have multiple twin souls out there. Because I can see how each girl has brought me to new understanding that I wouldn't have had otherwise.

I don't see how to do it without no-strings. Maybe overcompensating for my previous "enmeshment" but I'm tired of putting too much importance on an individual. It takes all the fun and and good vibes away. I'm tired of having women trigger all my fears. It's not fair to them.

So I feel like going to the other extreme for awhile. It'll balance out at some point.