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Do you mean that you trust SR in the way we both trust the earth will be there when we walk, because it is "that which you know and that makes you believe it"? I can say that about the earth being there, but not that reality is fundamentally subjective. That is something that people tell me, but I have no way of knowing if it's true, and I don't really trust it very much. I understand that everything I can say about it is a subjective and linguistic label...and all that postmodern stuff...I just can't say I experience having control over reality the way people here keep saying is possible - intention manifestation, psi, magick, etc.
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The jury is still out on having control over reality for me as well. I am attracted to the ideas and find myself in state of witnessing what seems to fall into the descriptions of what the IMer's are saying. That my experience is all my doing, in the way that reality is a symbolic reflection of my inner being.
Part of me is not really interested in controlling reality - except to generate more peace or harmony. Although it is fascinating to imagine maybe our beliefs of reality are not quiet right yet and there are some fun things we can do that would break the rules as we see them. Almost like wanting to be entertained by reality by changing beliefs and seeing things from a perspective that encompass or brings back feeling awed and being innocent in a way.
I do try to generate peace and harmony as much as I can with what I believe. And a lot of that is dropping drama of learned behavior - the mechanisms of self identity preservation or perceived threats and the responses that turn into habits. That activity may not be necessary - to defend my "self" - and without habitual mind stuff, hopefully the heart can be better at running my life - actually the heart would probably be following life, not running it. Or be better at being natural and flexible and conscious instead of reactive and habitual. Maybe all that is really psychological maneuverings as opposed to trying to believe IM. But one of the steps is to "know thy self" and forgiveness and acceptance, etc... sort of like there's no way to play with these ideas while having tons of personal baggage. Which is a good thing to work on anyway, ditching the habitual reactive self (well it's not ditching it but being at choice - which is to be aware and responsibly conscious)