how is she not a bad person if she cheated on me? how did she not mistreat me? i'm not saying it's impossible, but teach me why. I do feel like i let some of it happen, but i don't see how i am the bad person in it too. i would love to know how you think that though. i have feel like i've matured 10 times from this, especially with relationships. it's opened up having long talks with my dad about it and we've never talked emotionally. it feels great.
finally, would it be smart to write her a letter? i'm thinking about telling her how i feel and why things have to be like this and at the end tell her not to respond to it because i want to get over the whole situation. would this make it hard to forget about her if i'm the one who is talking and she does not respond?