I've learned that I was sensitive to that woman's treatment of me. Being so sensitive and so unfocused, isnt a healthy path for me. Unlike normal people, I have to work harder to filter out people's negative baggage from affecting me. I've noticed that I can be so easily affected by people's words, no matter how good or bad, a person can just say something, and suddenly, the mental image of it enters my mind, and I completely lose my original mentality.
In the midst of being so aware of people's emotions, the subtle things, I become lost in them. I was unable to hang on to my own emotions. So when that lady did what she did, my world instantly changed, and I was overwhelmed with thoughts I didnt ask for. The only solution many have given me, would be to cleanse myself and focus my mind so that my energies can have the protection it needs.
You could say that is just bullshit, and I just need to not let small things like that affect me. But, I can only say, I'm not you, and this is my approach at not letting things like this affect me. I'm not blaming the lady for being rude, but when things like that happen, I sort of wonder if the world is ending.  |