[Lara]

Originally Posted by Power

Do you remember a time when you opened your mouth when you shouldn't have? Would things have turned out differently if you did say or didn't say?

Pretty much from the time I learned to speak until I was in my mid to late 40's - and once in awhile still - when I am somnambulating.

It is possible things would have turned out differently but we don't know how do we? Does it matter at this moment (I ask myself)? I think not. I am glad to be where I am. I earned it. Here is not a bad place.

When I was about six or seven my Mother, after spanking me vigorously for innocently repeating something rude to a group of neighbors that she'd said about a neighbor who was present told me:

"Your mouth is always going to get you into trouble." or something to that effect.

This was not the last time she spanked me for this. From that day on I was always afraid to speak and when I did speak I had absolutely no confidence in what I was saying and was always fearful when I had to say anything. Eventually I disappeared and Ms. Ego and a band of wild things took my place in me.

Unfortunately, being what I became then had no choice but to live the next 35 years in trouble because of said mouth. A majority of my sorrows, trials and tribulations came as a result of Ms. Ego and her band of wild things speaking (when they could make my body open it's mouth): "my mind", "telling the truth", and "being honest"- as they chose to see it - not to mention thousands of attempts at "just a little white lie" a la Mama. LOL

One day, after many years of intensive self study with some very remarkable men and women, I finally began to see and hear my 'self' quite clearly and slowly, slowly learned how to connect with and speak from my higher self, from my heart and with love and wisdom.

Hard lessons for poor Ms Ego... but I'm oh so glad we experienced them. Life is freer and much easier now and I am able to help others learn to be free in the bargain.

Thanks for the question Power. Good food for thought.

Peace