So far I haven't been too tempted. I am finding there's more habit at work -- like, "a beer would go really well with this stew" kind of reaction. Nothing I can't resist.
But -- Danger Man's alcohol intake is becoming more apparent, and much more distressing, to me now. He's a charming drunk, it's true, but drinking something almost every day, and getting stinko paralytico twice a week or so, it's suddenly in my face. I'm resisting the "A" label, but that is a lot, isn't it? I feel he often speaks and acts in ways that he later regrets, or at least that get in the way of creating the life he wants. To be honest, I'm afraid one night he'll get wasted and cheat on me. Yikes, that is hard to write. This morning I said to him, "I think alcohol has gotten more powerful than you and I are, and we need to seize back the power!" He agreed, but I'm left feeling a bit .... I don't know what exactly. powerless. I love him exactly as he is, and exactly as he is not. I want to be a good strong partner. I don't want to be a sap.
