I've finally figured it out. I finally have something that really makes me excited.
If anyone has followed my threads, you will know that i was stuck between piano performance and programming. Well, I chose neither.
I received a little nudge that hinted that I should go for physics. Totally random direction! Of course, I really like physics, and love and am very good at math. so I thought it couldn't be too far off the mark.
Of course, I was really scared at first because, well there was no way to be sure it was the right way.
But I discussed it with my mother, to get her input, and decided that it really felt right to me. so I went and am going forward with it. I decided to double major in physics and math.
And now I am really excited and motivated again. I feel that thrill and can't wait to get into it. I'm confident that everything will fall into place just so in order for me to accomplish my goals.
And then tonight I did something else. I decided that to make it even more concrete in my mind, and thought maybe it'd work with LOA as well, I would imagine my future self, imagine I have morphed into that future self, in the ideal situation. I identified myself as Dr. Olivares, since I plan on earning a doctorate. I imagined myself doing research and calculations and discovering things. I imagined myself being respected in the field and making contributions in it. And I could actually hold that in mind for a while. it's sort of like Steve's blog post on feeling blessed, I guess. And that feeling actually made me wide awake, which is why I'm here right now, lol.
but that makes me even more confident about it, and makes me feel like I'm just waiting for the physical manifestation of reality to change to reflect my vision.
So now I think I've finally found what I am supposed to do, and wanted to share my excitement, since I'm wide awake and can't really do much else.
