Hi Freedomclub
Like jim mentioned, a lot of us has been there...me too. To start of with, no, you are not a ****. It seems like you are in asituation where you don't want to be in. It also sounds like your family are putting pressure on you to do something, because they feel you have to earn money.
I have three pieces of advice for you:
1. Set yourself some powerfull goals for the next three months. I know it sounds corny, but it will give you hope. It will give you something to work towards. I also know that you don't know how to set them, because you've mentioned that you don't know what you want. I have written a very practical article on how to do this. Try it. The link is
Friday Feeling - Discover your energy and zest for life
2. In the meantime, don't resist your current situation. The moment you resist, it puts you in the worst possible space to get out of it. The moment your accept the situation, you will be able to think more clearly about how to get out of it. Here are two more articles on this topic:
Friday Feeling - Discover your energy and zest for life and
Friday Feeling - Discover your energy and zest for life
3. We are all in different situations. The moment we move backwards, it seems to depress and paralyze us. It doesn't matter in what situation you are, if you can just move forward one step at a time, you will get that energy and zest back. In my experience as a life coach I have seen that change more often than not happens in small chunks. So small that you only notice the difference when you look back in three months. Most of us want big changes, but it happens one steps at a time.
I hope this help. You can find my contact details in the above-mentioned site. Do not hesitate to contact me. I would love to help.
Derik