 crash
Weekend. Social lunch. Just ate cake. Then chocolate then more cake. Feel so so sick.
Don't even know why I did it. .
Went to a stupid lecture on Diabetes. Talked to stupid dietition. She had no concept of sugar addiction. Basically said it did not exsist. Trivialised it.
I am not getting that it is only 30 days. I feel like it has to be forever or I will wreck my body.
Feel like I am going blind. My eyes are so much worse than they were a year ago. Feel like I am heading towards diabetes and it freaks me out. After sugar binges I get feet infections and dietition telling me diabetics lose their feet.
Sugar is everywhere. Can't be strong all the time. I feel so disappointed in myself and that it is so hard.
Only got to day 12. I guess I start again. Don't want to get into a cycle of failing 30 day challenges. Especially publically.
I am not going to post on here again until I have reached day 30.
Stella
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