[leilei]

Hello, all! This is my first time posting. I have a couple of questions that delve into areas in which I have absolutely experience, and you all seem very knowledgeable and experienced, so please bear with me.

My questions concern a psychic reading. I lost my daughter, Jordan, 9/4/07, and I want more than anything in the world to try to contact her in some way. I am thinking about making an appointment with Erin Pavlina for a reading. I was looking over the Intuitive Readings FAQ and Ms. Pavlina writes,

"If the only reason you want a reading with me is to connect with a deceased loved one then you might be better served finding someone who specializes in being a medium."

I want to follow her advice/instructions, and I don't want to anger her, but after reading about her and some of the things she has written, I have the feeling that I MUST have her do a reading for me--no one else will do. Does that make any sense? She also writes,

"Opening up the conduit to answer just one question is a big waste of time and energy. It's like getting God on the line and asking just one question. When I open the line, so to speak, your guides and higher self will have a lot to share with you. They don't want to just answer one question, they want to share information, wisdom, insight, and knowledge with you. Out of respect for the guides and the process, I don't do readings to answer just 1 question. 30 minutes is the minimum."

I am open to hearing/knowing anything anyone may wish to tell me, but I really only have questions concerning my daughter. I want to know that she is OK, happy and at peace. I want to know/confirm that she knows how much I love her, and I also want to tell her that I am so very sorry. During the last several months I have learned a great deal about "Manifesting Intentions" and "Law of Attraction." I've found that I have been amazed at truth of it and that it truly works/exists. I wish I had known before she died. I am convinced that my family and I are the reason she died because of our negative emotions and worry for her (I also feel that we are the cause of the accident that we had that left her paralyzed,with so many other awful, permanent injuries that caused her to lose both legs before her death). I just want her to know how very sorry I am. Do you think this will be acceptable to Ms. Pavlina (will she think I'm crazy--maybe I am)? I would very much appreciate any advice. Thank you.