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Steve suggested to look at life like it is a video game. Is is cool view. My is different but still the same. I'm creating the most beautiful subjective reality i can imagine. I have reallised that it is impossible to escape from myself, i can't beat myself. So i've decided to join myself. I'm going straight forward, only quarter of way has been passed.

It was hard cause i started from the mountain bottom and beginning was the steepest part. Now i would like just to rest for a while on this plateau, breath life and prepare to move on. I was looking for a companion who'd like to climb with me but i didn't find anyone. No one liked the offer, maybe because of me, maybe the mountain seemed to steep for them. I know that mountain is very steep and there's no sense in leading someone who will quit on half, or slow me down.

Yes, it would be nice to have someone to talk with when cold north wind start to blow and dump the snow on the road. When it force us to walk slowly and guess the right way. It would be nice to have someone to set a tent with and warm ourselves. Just for a moment when my body is shaking and my lips are shivering. Yes, it would be nice to have someone who will look down the way and celebrate with me. Yes, it would be nice to pitch our flag on the mountain top when we arrive there, when that time comes.

But, i am going in a different, hardest way, on the road where i don't meet many passengers because everybody is traveling on a beaten path. I want to create a new, shorter path. I can understand them, risk is dangerous and they want stability and happiness. They want to fool themselves by safety of their lives and they think it is worth a man's life.

Maybe there is someone, one single person who is doing things like i do, but on the other side of a mountain. Maybe we will meet one day, maybe our paths will cross. It's hard to say cause forest is bushy and snow can be deep.