ok so wait. if theo mixed up a negative entity (which i'm afraid of doing) with a guide..
i was often anxious of the spirits around me when i was little. thing is is that i don't know if it was valid or if i was just afraid because they were 'spirits' and i couldn't see who was watching me..
i've been trying lately to talk to my spirit guide and i imagined a table for us to sit and talk, and i've had medicine dreams but they often have black animals that appear as my 'guide' if they are so.... i imagined a black waterfowl to come to the table and talk to me.. but it just sat there and stared at me.. probably because i couldn't get rid of my ego fully... or something.
i think in that one dream with the waterfowl it was waiting for me to be brave to approach it.. but how can i trust something when i don't know who to trust?
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