That's a good analogy, oberlee.
Part of me feels silly because I am saying to myself (and here) That I KNOW my ego is doing things, but yet I am not stopping it. I guess that is what is confusing me. Why am I even DOING those things that I know are totally egoic based? Maybe next time I won't do them? UGH!!!
This is my first true look at the ego and I am just overwhelmed. I think part of it is feeling that frustration.... what's ego and what's ME? *I* am feeling downright crabby this week. Even my meditations are flighty at times... I am in the middle of a deep meditation and I want to scream at the dog to stop breathing so loud. LOL.
Ahhh.... just one of those weeks I guess.